Head vs Heart

The most complicated situations occur when feelings and logic are suggesting two opposing solutions to the same problem.
- Malcolm Farrell - Mitchell

A battle between my head and my heart has never really been a battle at all.
My heart is like Muhammad Ali and my head is some kid off the streets.
It was never even a contest. My head had no chance.

This time is different. This time my heart can't win and I don't know how to deal with that. I don't want to and I don't know how to just give up. I keep clinging to this desperate hope that it will work out. That it is meant to be and we'll figure it out. But I can't keep kidding myself. He's in AUSTRALIA. Even if I could spend a year there, it is only a year. Then we were are stuck in the same spot we are now.

I get to this part of the logic, and I agree, and I think I'm okay and know what I need to do. And then I saw this quote:

"What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don’t know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it’s never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don’t know what a love like Juliet’s feels like: love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for, but I’d like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I’d have the courage to seize it.

What if this is it? I don't want to be irrational, I've only known him for 4 months but I don't want to be stupid and let something so amazing slip away.

Thus the battle continues..

He deserves to move on and I should give that to him.

If it is truly meant to be, I will just have to hope and pray whatever force brought us together in the first place will eventually reunite us.

I am giving up on foolish hopefulness.

So, for the first time, I submit. I submit to logic and to reason.

Round over.