Generosity

I got home today and had a card in the mail. It was from my my mom's cousins from California (my 2nd cousins but I always have thought of them as my aunt and uncle). Surprised to see it was just for me and not the whole family, I opened it right away.

Enclosed I found a check written for $2,500 with a note that said, "We know paying for college is hard and we hope this can help. We know you are going to do great things in the future and can't wait to see you grow.

Speechless.

How do I tell someone how important of a gift this is? A letter seems to insignificant. A phone cal? I would trip over my words, and end it not feeling satisfied. What if they don't know how much this means to me?

This is not the first time I've been on the receiving end of mind blowing generosity.

Once, an anonymous donor paid for me to attend a mission trip in Montana.
A stranger bought me dinner after my basketball tournament when she saw I was alone and had no money.
A guy in a restaurant heard it was my birthday and bought my whole group of friend's meal.
My friend drove 2 hours with me when looking at a vehicle to make sure I wasn't getting ripped off.

Time and time again I am shown generosity beyond comprehension.

It leaves me feeling grateful, overwhelmed, awe inspired, a little uncomfortable and sort of confused.

Why me? I am not deserving of such kindness. Someone else could make such better use of these unbelievable gifts. However, I will continue to push myself so that they do not go wasted. Every time I feel like giving up or that it is not worth it, I remember people like my cousins, who believe in me so much that they want to help out in the most generous way possible.

I just.... I don't know. I don't think I'll ever be satisfied with the words I put down when trying to describe this feeling of immense gratitude I have right now.

I guess I'll just end with a simple, insignificant, unsophisticated two words that do not do the situation justice but it's all I have.

To all the people in my life who have shown me unconditional generosity:

Thank you.